why...

Sometimes you just can help but ask yourself why... I've asked myself why so many times... why did my mom get a rare disease? why did my dad get a brain tumor? why did my grandpa have to get cancer? why did my parent's divorce? So many questions, and yes, I do know the answer... it's all in God's plan, but dang it, sometimes you just can't help but want to scream from a mountain top "WHY GOD???? WHY?????"

This morning I find myself asking why is it that someone my age has to die. Someone so young and with so much to live for. My heart breaks for Nick's family this morning... especially his kids. They have had to watch their daddy change right before their eyes. As an adult I am able to "see" why, yet still question it all... but how in the world is a child supposed to see the real reason. I keep trying to think of what I would say to my girls if it was their daddy we had to let go of... I honestly can't find the right words, but instead am left with tears.

My thoughts and prayers go out to the Schaap family today and the hard days, weeks, and months ahead. May God grant them the strength to find those words to help comfort Nick's children, family and dear friends. Life is truly to short... I'm definitely taking some extra time today to snuggle with my girls and to cuddle with Jon... you just never know when it can all change...